Something that is shaped since young. indulged by the coincidental (by describing it this way, i meant i just follow my normal way to prepare and didnt really expect such an outcome) (near) straight As and (near) perfect scores since kindergarten. then slowly evolved into the mindset of such idealism. tolerance to imperfection is low. wouldnt try anything that i dun have (near) perfect confidence in it. even if i tried, historically it will fail. (yeah i know i was wrong about this) realised this double-edged sword (double in the sense that it hurts others and myself) only in uni. when everything doesnt seem to be so perfect. or when i have been pushed to my limit? i know badly that it's bad. very bad indeed. need training / theraphy to erase it. ugh.
to be continue..
story on how does such 'disorder' come in.
from a pov that is as objective as possible.
just to share my thoughts, to do some self reflections.
comments only enabled after the whole thing is out. :)
李玖哲 - 不，完美
