If friends fail. u get pissed for the day.and recover after that.
Friends. Realised that it's true that friendship does have an embeded half-life. Willing or not. It wouldnt be the same again after all. I must admit that i myself doesnt really put in extra effort to at least maintain the same level of closeness with my old friends. But most of the time, new friends coming in at the latest stage of my life and old friendships start to depreciate once everyone moved on different paths. That's why i am quite envy those people with GreenPlumBambooHorse friend, or even those who have been classmates of each other for few years.. at least u dont have the chance to start an akward conversation by saying long time no see..
MSN, friendster, simcard contacts are getting longer as i meet more people in this everchanging life. However, scrolling through the list, true friends that i can really talk to mayb is not even 10% of the list. Pathetic huh? and those hi-and-bye friends. Meet on the way to sch. Waved and Bye-d. U will feel weird to even stay for a second longer than that. Of course it's always possible for these hi-and-bye relationship to grow but wad's the probability of this if you all are unrelated in wadsoever things that u do in everyday life?
and now in uni. got to meet more people. partly due to the fact that i have joined alot of activites and kaypoh alot. Like wad my friend said, people that are only your friends coz of the functions. Or like wad most of the tutorial groups, friends are only projectmates, classmates, tutorialmates. I dun like these kinda relationships. That's why i usually very quiet during lesson. Wad's the point of putting up fake mask? Then again, it's just that we were not given chance to go thru the friendship making process together. which friendship doesnt start with functions?
Maybe it's predestined, but most of my first-batch friends wont be as close as the beginning at every single stage of my life. Let me do the counting for you.
Kindergarten - I cant even rmb my best fren's name already. Didnt bother coz i assumed that we will go to the same primary school. haha.
Primary School - First few friends made in P1 was later those not-too-close friends. Effect is even more obvious after PTS.
Secondary School - Formed some sort of affiliation with some classmates in Form1. then after each of us got posted to different classes in Form2 then group just fell apart like dat. Maybe it's just me or wad.
JC - was in 04s09 in first 3mnths. first batch of friends in school. The usual me who doesnt open up so quickly in new environment wasnt really close to them actually. but definitely they are abunch of nice people.
AntTeaYou - HallCamp Hydrus people are the first group of ppl that i know after entering this uni. after MIA for some group supper/outings, i literaly disappeared from the group. Only bumping into some of them ocassionally on the way to NBS..
I dont know why it's like this and i have no idea how to dispell this. But I really appreciate the 2nd and later batches of friends at different stages of my life. :D
and i'm lucky to have met many nice friends who helped me in shaping the wj today..
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