心 · 血

痛

很多时候,说应该为自己而活, 凡是尽力了就好. 但是, 当你发现你所付出的和最终的成果不成正比的话, 说实在, 心是灰的. 我不想管别人怎么看, 也不强求他人做任何事. 自己加油自己努力. 换来什么? 随时, 随时我都可以拍拍屁股走人, 我大可以到此为止. 可是我不要, 也知道自己不允许自己这么做. 既然投入了, 就要做到最好. 从概念设计排场宣传谱曲纪念品, 我都尽心我都拼命.

几个星期前的星期五, 前所未有的来了95%人数的练习. 不夸张我真得差点感动流泪. 大家side-reading奏着《菊花台》, 就算拍子不问音准有小问题, 整首歌听起来还是好听动人的. 可惜, 好像要等到演奏会当晚才会有酱多人一起演奏了.

选择减少回家, 选择迟睡, 选择过没有嗜好的生活...似乎是笨了点.

呕心沥血
心流着血

听我念完就算了. 演奏会照跑. 票照卖. :D

An Invitation

Grab your airticket@S$8 from me now!
and remember to redeem your passport just before the flight (:

中国/台湾
长城随想-序
龙的传人
对你有感觉 - 江美琪&光良
分飞 - 徐怀钰

日本
因为有你 あなたがいろから - 柯南
Tears - X Japan
Always, Time after time - 神隐少女
Doraemon

特别穿插
菊花台 - 周杰伦

欧美
Anitra's Dance
Happy Farmer
Minuet in G
La Playa
Invention no.13

东南亚
Bukan Cinta Biasa - Siti Nurhaliza
传灯
Ruang Rindu - Letto

Pekchek

As in. Sometimes i try to put myself into others to understand why they are doing or not doing certain stuff but most of the time, the only reason that i can get is no reason. Wasting time, wasting effort which makes me feel like dog. I mean, why should i put in 100% effort then? U may really appreciate for what we have done but i dont feel it. no effective communication! Please provide logical reason for whatever that you are doing. Letting the time to pass meaningless-ly is not the way.

Thanks.

双重标准

忙到像狗. 狗还可以伸出舌头喘气咧. 但是忙得充实, 这暂时的充实让自己有小小满足. 在很多方面都是新手上路的我, 有数不清的东西要学、要沿路去捡起来, 放进脑袋.

学习怎样学习怎样分身分脸分头脑
学习怎样与不同性格处事方式的人一起工作
学习怎样有效又不伤人的敷衍功力
学习怎样做传信鸽还要遏制加油添酱的可能
学习应对突发状况压抑自己过头的震惊
学习让自己的情绪收发自如激动和平静就只差了几秒半
学习以下属的身份忍气吞声说服自己标想酱多
学习怎样以第三者的角度来看自己

一句话带过: 学习认识自己

Doggy style again.

Programmers meeting. GLs briefing. Log-Wel briefing. 3ers recce. 3ers meeting. Combined test game. 3ers props prep. Log ghost briefing. Ghost briefing. Vivace prac. Vivace prep. Senior camp. Actual camp.

1st day of acs.
Bleh.

B欲

就是要blog的欲望啦. 通常一个博客要发新帖的时候, 就是他想向全世界炫耀某某想法的时候. 不然就是他突然间想对自己讲话. 换我的话, 再加一点点的"为了让以后衰老的我记得以前发生过的事"和"突然间很废"这两个理由呗.

感觉上, 就假假很感性的去感觉啦. 不管你怎样努力, 你的第二第三第四语言是不可能, 再说一次, 不可能会比你的第一语言好的. 就好像自己现在[虽然没有非常发奋]学法语、 韩语、 漏洞的马来语, 还有一边潜意识希望自己因为接触多而顺理成章会进步的英语, 想要超越华语在我脑里的地位? 哼, 难咯. 就好像在讲英语的时候, 免不了会用华语来构图联想才翻译. 先下手为强听过吧? 华语就在其他语言还没开始前就抢先跑到大脑思考的路线咯.

看电影连续剧, 其实都在看幕后的东西. 抓角度. 抓镜头. 配乐. 主角身上的饰物表情代表着没有explicitly说出来的东西. 台词与台词之间的联系. 导演想让观众了解的细节. 想太多的人就是酱. 所以说故事烂标紧. 就算是好也只是bonus而已. 就刚刚看完了先听歌再看剧的《사랑하다 미안하다》. 看完spoiler后再看的感觉就是不一样. 就是会看得比较仔细.

惨. 因为刚刚在脑里闪过万分之一秒的灵感没有好好draft出来. 现在不懂要怎样继续了. 罢了. 反正一个小时后有开会. 四个小时后有另一个会要开. 二十四小时后又有多一个. 七十个小时后又又有一个.

显. 开会开会. 开了就会?

Sit. Eat. Mountain. Empty.

New fonts!

Korean|Kiddie|Typewriter|Handwritten|HarryPotter|Naruto|ChineseCalligraphy|
Coca-cola|Parseltounge|Stylish|Hindi|FakeSaudi|Graffiti|Japanese|Taco|etc

Altho the latest 2 entries are tagged as Boliao, it would be wrong to say that i'm boliao for these few weeks. Harmoc prac, Flash making, Production meeting, Subject Registration, Camp prep, Senior camp, Actual camp. Everyone is so busy.m(~.~)m and anyone interested in any of the fonts above just tell me i'll email/msn/share it to you. Welcome.

Detailed analysis of my name

林 lin2 - Several trees(木) i.e. forest.
>木 mu4 - Pictorgraph of a tree.

偉[伟] wei3 - Person(人) standing with contrast(韋[韦])(phonetic) i.e outstanding.
>人 ren2 - Pictograph of a human.
>韋 wei3 - Oppose(舛)(rearranged) with (囗)phonetic.
>>舛 chuan3 - Persons(夊)(夂) standing back to back.
>>>夊 sui1 - Person(人) with extra mark suggesting shackles.
>>>夂 kua4 - Person (人) with extra mark suggesting pursuit.
>>囗 wei2 - Ideograph representing an enclosure.

建 jian4 - Write(聿) rules governing behaviour/steps(廴).
>聿 yu4 - Hand(又) holding a towel/object(巾) writting a line(一).
>>又 you4 - Pictograph showing right hand.
>>巾 jin1 - Pictograph showing hanging cloth.
>廴 yin3 - Step(彳) extended.
>>彳 chi4 - Pictograph of a person(人) taking a small step.
>>>人 ren2 - Pictograph of a human.

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Vfeng@LeisureFarm + Day3er@Genting

22June: Vfeng trip
With much anticipation, we finally had vfeng outing before ahkay went back to US~ however, sammi and laowang were not able to join us that day. Hmm. wonder when will we have a full attendance outing again, ever since Tanjung Puteri trip. Haha.


These people trying to curi makan but found out by the cameraman. haha


Bakgwa with potato salad! Woohoo. it's darn nice i tell u.


Zoom in look. Stop drooling lah u!


Then we had cup noodles. coz we didnt expect ourselves to get hungry so fast hahaa and didnt buy any food for lunch..


Went around to walkwalk. And this is a little maze which reminds me of triwizard challenge haha.


and there was big set of chess tooo. But too bad it wasnt a complete set.. if not i would have sampat and played a game liao~


Little waterfall caused by the downpour earlier in the morning..taken with fast shutter speed.


the best photo of the day: macro always do the trick eh?


This can be sent for competition too hahhahaaha. got lotsa mosquitoes there though..


The dog-hole that we had to climb thru to get back to the main road. haha siasuei sia. in the end the gate open just after i climbed thru the hols. :S


The place that we stayed that day.. Many neighbours there were singaporeans.. some bought the houses there as their 2ndhome during vacations. wahseh.


then we made our own cocktail!


Using dry gin, lemonade, fruit punch and 100plus. Haha. Only lemonade turned out to be okay..


and that was after dinner of course. Dinner we had kinda like a reunion dinner. hahaha. actually played CNY song while we were eating. haha. we really feng le..


and i will always do this whenever there's steamboat.. c0ok ur own egg!


Last but not least, Vfeng family photo. haha. i look like my face is gonna crack from that smile.
ltr: Ken HL KY WJ WP Willow Yeo Laona

*****

28-29Jun: Day3er outing
Photos continue from the previous entry.. and dont know why this genting trip was darn short and full with waiting. which kinda make the whole thing abitsian diao. Anyway had fun and it's great to see day3 family again :D


Awana resort. service is good and big room. but i'm not gonna stay there anymore. Argh. friggin cable car queue.


They changed cokecan to energiser! hahaa. was thinking about wad else they can change. 7up? Pepsi? Haha.


Cheesy bite pizza! Lol turned out to be kinda normal leh. haha dont know why. All the pizza taste the same for my taste buds.


Before we went up and became newton's apple.


and these are the other 2 who went up as well.. and that's all from day3er! 5 out of 12. Hmmm..


I missed the flying chairs! -..-" all coz of the stupid cable car!


Go-kart was actually kinda boring. esp when u are in the lead. then i'll always purposely slow down hahaha.


We played bowling too! and as always, my results sux hahaha.


Didnt get to play this as well. ToT


and the only whole group photo! Didnt take any photo at lotsa places for eg rejang, bumperboat, pirate ship etc.. Theme park still kinda rocks but then think i wont go genting again in the near future bah~
ltr: WX HL PS WP SL Kim SW YZ YY Joe WH WJ

Tada! Last 2trips before life gets super busy again~
Thanks MLT again for the photos (:

[蕉赖-首都-云顶]精选十张

任人摆布
我们的舞蹈
不是自愿的


这个蛋糕帽头小弟弟很hiao
用手去弄他的大象
他的头就会发亮


红豆 椰奶 还有半支冰棒棍
哈根达斯 谁理你啊？


最恐怖的不是它的高度
也不是身体和心脏分离的时刻
而是明明十四秒才开始跳楼的
怎么数到十二就变成牛顿的苹果了
软~


巴沙马拉姆
真正看到创意的地方
还有 长高一点癫的人
空气真的会比较新鲜


我不能自由自在地飞
注定要待在笼子里
但是
我不寂寞


点心点心
小小力用筷子去点
大大口把味道吃进心里去


你和你的名字一样
很 缆 懒惰
慢慢酱爬
半路还要借滑轮的力
显掉


是不是说
大的列车站就要精心制作
小的就可以大便小便很随便？


一年过后 你还是没有长高
我的记忆却还在

iTunes playing Melodi_Rynn Lim feat. Sheila Majid