will just leave some messages here then ciao
some friendship can be stored in the fridge then you can take it out for reheating anytime u want :D and will still be as fresh as before. tired physically and mentally. cant rmb when was the last time i woke up with the fully energised feel. cant rmb when was the last time i woke up naturally.
hate snowballing. I respect Prof. Bala to the max. It would be the same case as how YK said Mr. Tang was his idol. and i feel bad for not completing the tutorials. feel guilty for myself. and to a certain extent. for Bala. Bala said. studying actuarial is like trying to break a stone. You dont break the stone because of the last hit, but because of the continuous hits on the stone.
A rather close friend threw a phrase to me to describe my current situation. and i think it's quite true. Need to tranform myself into a studymachine soon. right now actually. Screw the project and the lazy me who could have started everything earlier. Miss my family. Pa Ma Gor Shen Mei. i wanna go home but i dont dare. seriously. Hope they are doing well. Wish they are happy. I do believe in God when it comes to pray for my family. having hard time trying to concentrate on schwork and meetings. braindead happens all the time. burn midnight oil is really not good. sometimes will feel the burning of my organs inside. These few days really dont feel like meeting anyone else. dont wanna spread the blue colour to my friends. and yet longing to see them. Their presence will somehow lighten the blues.